Current Location: Too Far From Any Coffee Shop

Hello friends! What a week and a half it has been since I last updated you all. Since moving in I’ve delivered a few theatre workshops, continued to plan a national program and drank copious amounts of ber and coffee. So far this summer has been quite enjoyable, but I have one bone to pick with my new place.

I have yet to discover its super cute, amazingly-cheap, hipster-driven coffee shop. There’s one on my way to work, but I can’t read the signs to see how much coffee is and I never get up early enough to be that girl asking for the first time, so I’ve got to wait.

This means my first coffee is after three subways and a bus when I arrive at work. Given its free, but still, girl needs a coffee a bit earlier than an hour after the commute on Toronto public transit.

Forever waiting until I’ve saved my pennies and banked enough time for me to go and pick out a keurig, but there is still the charm in a local coffee shop nearby first thing in the morning. Its the nuance of becoming a “regular” them knowing my order, “keep the change,” becoming a normal occurance. It’ll happen, its just waiting for it to come to me is taking a while.

Good coffe, albeit few and far between, can be worth the wait.

Until I find this perfect place nearby I guess I’ll have to survive off of free coffee at the CNIB. What a hard life to lead.

Until next time,

xx Jess

My Day In Photos: Moving Day

Hello my friends!  Welcome to my Moving Blog post!  Below are a bunch of photos describing my moving day.  Thanks to my parents and my lovely Grandpa who came and set me up, provided me with lots of goodies for the kitchen and some night lights to help me get around, and make it as comfortable as possible for me.  I am so grateful to them, and so happy and proud to be in my first solo apartment!  I’ve made it my own, and will slowly keep adding to it!

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xx Jess

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To the best of my knowledge I currently am the proud owner of two very different tumblr blogs.  Do you not know what a tumblr blog is?  Where have you been?  Clearly not sitting on the internet.  I spent hours in my first year of university not binge-watching netflix shows, not writing papers or doing readings (although both activities were prevelant in my life at the time) but scrolling mindlessly and mindfully through tumblr finding pictures that spoke to me, said something to me, and I frequent that blog often, but no longer post on it.  Interested?

http://www.whisperhappy.tumblr.com

It coincided with my 365 Blog I was writing at the time, where I wrote one blog post a day.  Its similar in title so if you are really interested and are so inclined to find it on your own feel free to do so.

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Since then and since I stopped posting on my Whisper Happy blog, I have taken momentary hiatuses from tumblr.  I tend to turn to this website in times of complete and total dismay; when a tragedy happens in my family, another surgery, travel.  In England I spent hours on tumblr, and upon my return home, in the mind-bumning depression that accompanied me for the following months of homesickness to London and a tragedy, this blog found its way into my life:

http://www.cosypockets.tumblr.com

And right now it seems as though Cosy Pockets might have a reutrn.  I am not depressed, but in transition, and it has seemed that tumblr plays a different role for everyone who uses it.  Usually people tend to use it similarly to Facebook, to post pictures and share things with an online community.

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People use it to respond to current events and share eachother’s musings, which I love, but have never been a part of.

Lots of people use it for sexual content, not my style.

I like to create something pretty that I honestly return to all of the time.  I spend hours scrolling through my old reblogged pictures and smile, I did this this morning, and that’s why this post is here today.  I hope to create a new blog, although I think I have in the recent weeks, and if this is true, and it starts becoming active again, rest asssured that the link will appear somewhere on this written blog in due time.

Until then, enjoy my journals, my online, picture-oriented, curated by MOI journals, the tumblr.com generation is what we should be called, and if you agree then I’d love to see your blogs too.

My last note about tumblr is that everyone tends to have one and use it in different ways, yes, but once upon a time I used my tumblr as a love letter.  T whom?  Well, funny you mist ask, because there was a person in particular, and I do still believe that these tumblr blogs turn out to be a love letter to eachother of some kind, but in diferent lights now.  I think my lvoe letter is to the digital world and accessibility of emotions on the internet, to life, and to expression.

Enjoy,

xx Jess

*All photos were found from my previous tumblr posts, I’m sure the credit is due, but a common thread on tumblr is finding the credit itself, so I apologise and give credit if these are your photos, they are beautiful, and I only use them because I myself cannot take photos such as these.  Also Audrey Hepburn wouldn’t pose for me, so you know…

Sunday Rain Adventure

Hi Friends! I’m sure you’re all about in various weather but today in Toronto it is pouring, and I’ve decided to grit my teeth, put on a sweater and find something to do outdoors. Alright, out of my doors, I walked down Bloor and tried to get into the BMV but it was closed, so ended up at Bulk Barn to find cranberry omega 3 flax cookies! So delicious, happy to have some goodness in my baked goods!

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Then I tried out the Almond Butterfly cafe, which has Gluten Free baked goods and the tastiest coffee! This is the kind of day that I would usually do with my buddy ol’ pal AJ, but he’s being a big world traveller and is currently melting in Paris, so I am allowed to do a bit of our to-do list if it gets me out of the house!

I got a cheese biscuit with garlic as well from the cafe, it needs a warm up but I plan on having a nibble of that while catching up on some Youtube videos today!

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I also picked up the new Vogue and the New Yorker, a few of my favourite reads when it comes to relaxation time! What a fun day I’ve got going for myself.

I’ve a few other errands to work on this afternoon, I need to do some yoga as my lower back is acting up, apply for a scholarship and do a bit of research. This is my last sunday with room mates, which feels insane ad also the coolest thing ever!

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I hope to do a face mask and foot therapy this evening, to end the day with some kind of real relaxing, beginning of the week motivation! I also need to find a new Netflix show, so that’s another thing on my to-do list for today!

Happy Sunday all!

xx Jess

Anectdote Post 1: I Wanna Dance

A long time ago, in a world much different than this (3 years max.) my younger brother used twitter much more frequently than he does now…Come to think of it, I’d be surprised if he knew his password, anyways.  I tweeted before going out to a pub night “I wanna dance with somebody!” referring to the popular Whitney Houston song, thinking how sweet and cute I am, tweeting song lyrics, as one usually does.

Not five minutes later I get a mention to my twitter inbox which read “WITH SOMEBODY WHO LOVES ME”

From my, at the time, eleven-year-old brother.

Now, at fourteen, just returning from his first school trip to Quebec City, graduating middle school next week, taller than me, and off to Highschool next year, my Bro is just as cool (although he’d hate to see me writing this embarassnig tale for all to see) LOVE YOU BUB.

Happy Friday, friends!

xx Jess

“I’m All Right Right Now”

Oh friends, its another rainy day here in Tornoto, and if pathetic fallacy wasn’t so pathetic (ha-ha) then I would say it reflects my mood.  Its been a hard day and a bit, tired, pain, losing things, sister’s off travelling the world, and it just feels like everything’s coming at once, and I have been trying to get my head on straight.  Do you ever feel that way?  That its spinning and twirling almost out of control?  Heads spin sometimes, but is it possible for them to just continue on spinning?

So to cope with yesterday I did my daily yoga, but man, did that backfire.  Hurt my neck, broke a chair, its all just been…inconclusive, I guess.  And mid-note taking for Muddy Mary I opened up my meditation book that I keep beside my bed just in case and the practice “I’m All Right Right Now” opened itself up to me.  Its simple.  Just notice how you are in this exact moment and recognize how you are NOT in danger, not drowning or immediate danger, relatively safe and sound…And that you are all right.  You may not be “fine,” or emotionally stable, or happy, and you may want things–but you are ALL RIGHT.  And I’ve thought just that for the past awake hours.

I am all right.

Things are what they are.  Is it going to cost me a bit of money (“it” referring to yesterday as a whole) yes, but that’s the way it is.  We roll with the punches.  I’ll do some restorative yoga today for my neck, I’ll email my sister and try not to worry about it.

This blog this week is a dumping ground for my mind right now.  Like I said:  Head. Spinning.  It feels like I want to create something interesting and fun, but I’m not a fashion blogger I don’t care about sharing my outfits, stuff like this, advice about mental health, my experience, and hopefully that is interesting to some people.

I promise to spend the rest of the week making great content.  I have three posts already planned, and hopefully my time is a bit more even so I can sit down and write them all.

Hope you’re all well, remember that you are all right right now :)

xx Jess

Efficient Packing and the Tale of Three Bags

Good Morning friends! I hope you’ve had a really wonderful weekend, I had a full two days oasis from the stress that plagued me enough to ceasefire the posts for a bit. However, I’m going to try to post a it more regularly, but with an impending move and two jobs it has become a bit difficult. Nonetheless, here’s some tips of efficient packing when limited bags are available!

Coming home for me means laundry and minimal bags. I had two bags and a dress shoes and makeup for a wedding to pack. Needless to say, one bag was full of laundry and the dress, the other had ork things and makeup. These two bags did me well this weekend, the only downfall was having to wear the shoes for the wedding home, which made for a painful Thursday! (The shoes were completely broken in for the wedding though!)

The elusive third bag came about when I realized there were things that I was to send home and not take back to Toronto with me, and so I found a different bag (this one had llamas on it from Peru!) and filled it with things that were wedding-specific and to be sent home for cleaning/storage.  This included my travel things and the dress (and those heels I spoke of, they were sent home in this bag) leaving the other two bags to hold the things needed for Toronto.

All of this system will break down in a month when I move into a more permanent place and want to leave little at my parents’ house, but I will continue on in my student-luxury for a little while longer!  Thanks to my gracious parents for not complaining about my room always having various things stored there.

So, three bags, various stages of packing, and all the while taking a much needed break from the hubbub of work and work and work.  I know The Muddy Mary Project doesn’t seem like work on the outside, and if I’m honest never feels like too much work on the inside, but reading plays and being organized and responsible IS work, and its on top of my full-time job at CNIB, and living independently, and its amazing, but sometimes I like to just shut my brain off from all of that, chat with friends until late at night, dance for the rest of it with my family, and just get out.

This weekend was truly a blessing, whatever that means to you, because it recharged me, and I arrived home yesterday to read HALF of the things I needed to!  So proud of myself, ready for another evening of reading tonight (along with grocery shopping, scholarship/grant writing, and cleaning…joy) but it all comes with the terms of being a) a Freelancer and b) an “adult,” so I can’t complain.

I hope you’ve all enjoyed yourselves on this morning commute to work!  I missed the crazy subway drama, thank goodness, and hopefully will be able to get through the day only mildly drenched by all of this rain!

xx Jess

Yoga A Day in June!

Oh friends, happy day, its Monday and its the beginning of a new month!  Beginnings are great!  You know why?  Because it gives you a fresh start every 30-or-so days, and today I’ve decided to pledge, officially, to practice yoga once a day for the entire month of june.

I’ve been working on my yoga practice for nearly…four years now?  I think four anyway, and it has sincerely influenced my life for the better.  Yoga can be practiced for an hour, 30 minutes, or five, it doesn’t matter, as long as it is internalized and practical  For me and my practice what works is what works, I try not to plan too much in advance, because if I plan to do a 40 minute class and end up in a call or my commute takes too long then I feel bad for it, so setting goals becomes a smaller portion of the month, and it takes on tis own journey, out of my hands, and what happens happens.

Strength building, flexibility, cultivating patience, mindfulness, positivity, one-ness, understanding and content.  Peace, one might say, is a beautiful and valuable space to inhibit.

If you’d like to come along with me, try and practice once a day, even if it is five sun salutations upon waking (which is apparently one of the best ways to start your day) or a longer practice before bed for sleeping, mindfulness on the commute or short classes over your lunch hour, every moment of yoga helps!

And if not, then I wish you lots of recuperating and peaceful time for you this month!

Happy June!

xx Jess

Monthly Playlist: June

Oh good morning friends!  I thought I’d bring back my lovely monthly playlists, as I’ve been a bit music-onbsessed this month.  I’ve decided to just go with the songs from the top of my head, post the tracklist, and potentially go back and put in the youtube videos as usual.  If I don’t get to that don’t hold it against me!  But here are my TOP TEN TRACKS to start off your JUNE right!

1.  Ten Years Gone – Led Zepplin

2. One- Neil Young

3. Rock and Roll Suicide- David Bowie *repeat from a few months ago because SO GOOD

4.  With a Girl Like You- The Troggs

5.  The Wind- Cat Stevens

6.  Stay Alive- Jose Gonzales

7. Boss-  Fifth Harmony

8. The Boxer- Simon & Garfunkel

9.  Wild Horses- The Rolling Stones

10.  BENNIE & THE JETTS-  Elton John

I must make a suggestion that these be listened to in accordance with a comfort beverage of choice, on a back deck, with headphones or speakers your choice, and just get into the summer groove.

xx Jess

“It Doesn’t Look Like I’m Listening to CCR/Zeppelin Nonstop…But I Am”

& other things I think on the subway.

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Where should I look? Is there some kind of guidebook for blind people on where they should look in the subway?

Stop reading my phone over my shoulder please.

Or looking at my tattoos.

Which side of the car are the doors going to open? Should I turn left or right?

Is my music too loud? Is everyone staring at me? Can they hear that I’ve played the same Rolling Stones song five times in a row?

Did I sing that outloud?

Stop dancing.

If I get off at the other stop I can grab Cobb’s bread on the way home.

I wantbread.

Do I have to go to work tomorrow? I’m so tired, I’d like to just spend a day sleeping.

Or reading, but mainly sleeping.

I want food, why don’t they have vending machines here?

Maybe I should change the music up a bit–

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Nope, I hope no one was looking over my shoulder as I click “repeat all” on Neil Young, again.

I wonder what everyone else thinks I’m listening to…

Why am I focusing so much on this?

I should write a blog about all of these thoughts.

I need pictures. These are awful. Now everyone’s looking at me taking pictures.

Where did that bruise on my leg come from?

Man, I’m tired.

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xx Jess